Weekly Update 13: Ten Things That Sum Up My Week


Hereโ€™s this weekโ€™s installment in my Weekly Update series!


#1: This week’s posts

Two posts went out this week:



#2: Read-aloud

I recorded myself reading the post above (Shorts, My Old Nemesis…) out loud (!!!!!!!!). It’s at the end of that post.

I found it a lot of fun. I like finding new ways to challenge my social anxiety that don’t actually involve interacting directly with other humans…


#3: I have a stye

I don't know why, 
But I have a stye. 
I guess I'll cry. 

(It’s actually not bad. Just annoying. Jesse’s mama is a nurse and she said warm compresses and NO POPPING OR POKING OR GENERALLY PROVOKING IT.)


#4: Body image and social anxiety

I shared this image on Instagram and wanted to include it here, too.

It was surprising and helpful when I first learned that it is common for those who experience social anxiety to also struggle with body image dissatisfaction.

I can see why: social anxiety is a fear of judgment by others. It’s not a big leap to fearing the judgment of one’s body by others.


#5: Look, I can open a cupboard!

I shared this image in the same post as above, as a challenge to myself. I have a really hard time seeing myself from the side in photos. So I took a fairly “safe” side photo and posted it. Baby steps.

The more times I’ve seen it this week, the less weird I have looked to myself. (Does that sentence make sense?)


#6: The Tees Were Teasing Me

I could resist no longer. I have ordered two TeeTurtle shirts:

Love Yourself t-shirt TeeTurtle caribbean blue t-shirt featuring a fox hugging itself with hearts around him
Glitter is My Favorite Color T-Shirt TeeTurtle

I think I’m kind of obsessed with graphic tees.

I think I’ve always loved them, but I’ve been closet-obsessed. As in, in the closet about my obsession, not obsessed about the closet I will keep my glorious new tees in.

I’ve had weird hang-ups about wearing graphic tees. Broadcasting my tastes visually has made me feel exposed and vulnerable.

But no more!

I am going to unleash my long-dormant, simmering-beneath-the-surface graphic tee addiction.

(In a financially responsible way.) (Mostly.)

I will still feel vulnerable and exposed, but that will be social anxiety talking, and I will try hard to hear that voice but not obey it.


#7: The LEGO Movie 2

I can’t stop listening to the soundtrack for The LEGO Movie 2. It’s here on Spotify.

I don’t know if it will be at all interesting to listen to if you haven’t seen the movie and don’t know the characters, but my favourite song is Not Evil by Tiffany Hadish.


#8: Best line I’ve heard In a long time

By a self-accepting, introverted friend who is constantly showing me new ways to think about things related to introversion, shyness, people pleasing, and more (and who preferred to remain nameless but gave me permission to share):

There are some battles not worth fighting.

That’s why I stay quiet so much. I smile a lot and think to myself “I completely disagree with you, but you are passionate in your falsehood and I am not being paid to remedy that“. ๐Ÿ˜


#9: “How do you introduce yourself at parties?”

I heard this icebreaker question the other day (not at an actual party).

And I don’t generally like this kind of structured small talk, but I feel less awkward about it in writing, when I’ve had time to think.

I guess I would say, “I’m a mom of 2, and like to write about mental health when I’m not keeping the kids alive or freelancing.”

Maybe? I probably wouldn’t say that. Maybe something more like:

“Teehee! That’s SO KIND of you to ask! I freelance! I have kids! I get CHIPPER AS F*** when introduced to new people and put on the spot! WHAT ABOUT YOU?!?!?!”


#10: I finally did it

I finally wrote that post about how social anxiety disorder can impact a person’s sex life.

It’s something I’ve wanted to do for a long time, because it’s a legitimate issue that I don’t see discussed in a candid and personal way.

The post is lighthearted and hopefully a little funny. Nothing too graphic. I’m just testing the waters to see what kind of response there is.

I’m prepared for very little response — it’s hard enough to talk about social anxiety openly, let alone social anxiety in the bedroom.

Anyway, the post is called “How To Have Socially Anxious Sex In 4 Easy Steps” and it goes out on Monday morning.

I’m considering doing a read-aloud for that one, too. Thoughts?


That’s been my week!

How was yours?

What did you get up to?

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๐‘๐ž๐œ๐จ๐ฏ๐ž๐ซ๐ฒ ๐ข๐ฌ ๐ง๐จ๐ญ ๐š๐›๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ "๐Ÿ๐ข๐ฑ๐ข๐ง๐ " ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ.โฃโ € โฃโ € This was one of the most heartwarming realizations I made during therapy. โฃโ € โฃโ € It's not about fixing ME. โฃโ € โฃโ € It's about ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ฑ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ me, ๐˜ต๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ค๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ me, ๐˜จ๐˜ถ๐˜ช๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ me, ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฒ๐˜ถ๐˜ช๐˜ฑ๐˜ฑ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ me.โฃโ € โฃโ € ๐˜Œ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฑ๐˜ฐ๐˜ธ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ me.โฃโ € โฃโ € It's about showing me how to manage the symptoms of anxiety and depression that I experience. โฃโ € โฃโ € But it has ๐ง๐จ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ง๐  to do with me being bad, weak, or broken. โฃโ € โฃโ € ๐˜๐จ๐ฎ ๐š๐ซ๐ž ๐๐Ž๐“ ๐›๐š๐, ๐ฐ๐ž๐š๐ค, ๐จ๐ซ ๐›๐ซ๐จ๐ค๐ž๐ง. โฃโ € โฃโ € ๐˜—๐˜“๐˜Œ๐˜ˆ๐˜š๐˜Œ ๐˜ต๐˜ณ๐˜บ ๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ท๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ด๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ ๐˜ ๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ฅ. โฃโ € โฃโ € ๐ฑ๐จ๐ฑ๐จโฃโ €

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Weekly Update 12: Ten Things That Sum Up My Week

Welp, it’s week 9 of lockdown and I used my bikini trimmer to tame my 5-year-old’s mullet.

(Jesse is ENTIRELY TOO JUDGMENTAL of this decision.)


Hereโ€™s this weekโ€™s installment in my Weekly Update series!


#1: This week’s post

THREE posts went out this week!!!




#2: I need splash pants

We splashed in the rain, and the kids had fun, and I found myself wishing I had splash pants so I could join them.


#3: I’m Blue (da ba dee da ba die)

It has taken approximately 7,000 applications to achieve this greenish-blue hue, and it will wash out when I stop using the blue shampoo, but for now, I’m really enjoying the look:

Okay, green/grey/blue, but still. Yay fun!

#4: A Novel Companion

After coveting my friend Pascale’s A Novel Companion (book lover’s guide/tracker) for ages, I was finally in time to order one when they restocked a few weeks ago.

And it arrived on Friday!!!


#5: Big dreams

I want to write a memoir someday.

I want to show that social anxiety doesn’t have to hold you back — by learning to walk the walk myself.

I want to learn to speak even when my voice is shaking, so that I can inspire others to do the same.

I want to eat a taco.


#6: Big Discovery


#7: Old photo

I came across an old photo of myself as a young teen in Wakefield (QC), lying across the train tracks on “the green bridge.” I actually remember this day.

(The steam train schedule was highly predictable.)

I also remember looking at this photo back then, and thinking I needed to lose weight. What I wouldn’t give to go back in time and release myself from all my body consciousness.


#8: Old journal

I also unearthed an old journal written during my previous relationship (we were engaged by the end of it).

It was not a healthy relationship, but we didn’t know that, at the time.

The journal notes are filled with my desperation to “deserve” my then-partner. I didn’t see any instances of me wondering if he “deserved” me.

It’s good to see how far I’ve come… but painful to look back.


#9: Mama had a baby and her head popped off

Do you ever do the thing where you decapitate a dandelion while chanting “Mama had a baby and her head popped off”?

I realize that this probably sounds barbaric if you didn’t grow up doing it.

Anyway I taught that to my kids this week and it was excellent.


#10: Anxious mommy is anxious

I documented my mommy anxiety over my kids climbing DANGEROUS ROCKY CLIFFS OF IMMINENT DOOM AND DESTRUCTION with their DAREDEVIL father.

And I also documented part 2 of this mommy anxiety when we returned without Daddy but while there were ALMOST CERTAINLY LIONS AND TIGERS AND BEARS present.

(Please pardon my newbie video editing skillz.)


French Lessons:

The kids now automatically say “Excusez-moi” every time they toot, which is a lot, so teaching them French is obviously going well.


That’s been my week!

How was yours?

What did you get up to?

Weekly Update 11: Ten Things That Sum Up My Week


Hereโ€™s this weekโ€™s installment in my Weekly Update series!


#1: This week’s post

One post went out this week: I Took 4 Online Tests for Social Anxiety: Here Are My Results


#2: Jesse’s birthday

It was Jesse’s birthday yesterday (May 8)! We had a subdued celebration with chocolate cake, pizza, and The LEGO Movie 2.

When the world turns back on, we’ll go out and celebrate more excitingly.

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๐€ ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ฉ๐ฉ๐จ๐ซ๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ๐ž ๐ฉ๐š๐ซ๐ญ๐ง๐ž๐ซ ๐œ๐š๐ง ๐›๐ž ๐š ๐ฅ๐ข๐Ÿ๐ž๐ฌ๐š๐ฏ๐ž๐ซ. โฃโฃ โฃโฃ A supportive partner can be a ๐ฉ๐จ๐ญ๐ž๐ง๐ญ ๐š๐ง๐ญ๐ข๐๐จ๐ญ๐ž to the ๐ญ๐จ๐ฑ๐ข๐œ ๐ญ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ ๐ก๐ญ๐ฌ that run through the mind of someone who struggles with perfectionism, anxiety, and low self-esteem.โฃโฃ โฃโฃ ๐˜๐˜ข๐˜ฑ๐˜ฑ๐˜บ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜บ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜น๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜บ ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฅ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต๐˜ฆ, ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ด๐˜ข๐˜ง๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฑ๐˜ญ๐˜ข๐˜ค๐˜ฆ, ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ค๐˜ฌ, ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฌ๐˜ช๐˜ฅ๐˜ด' ๐˜ซ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜จ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ ๐˜จ๐˜บ๐˜ฎ.โฃโฃ โฃ

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#3: Cuticle Picking

I’ve fallen back to my old habit of tearing my cuticles apart. I’d been doing really well for months. My index finger is currently wearing a Frozen 2 bandaid.

That’s how I know I’m probably more stressed in my body than I realize in my mind. About…? Maybe it’s just week 8 of lockdown life.


#4: Hard week

Actually, it has been a very hard week emotionally.

In my daily mood tracker, I had to introduce a new colour/category for Thursday (May 7). Previously, my lowest mood was red and called “really struggling.”

On Thursday, I introduced black and called it “The Worst.”

This was the peak of the mess that was Thursday:

Thursday.

#5: Hubby pep talk

The way I act and talk with my kids when I’m anxious is just… so not at all how I see or saw myself as a mom, you know?

Jesse lifted my spirits later on Thursday night with one of his pep talks.

“You’re caring for tiny humans who adore and love you, but don’t have the ability to care or empathize for your needs yet. Anyone would get drained and struggle under those conditions.”

The part of his pep talk that stuck with me most.

The next day was the best day mood-wise I’d had all week. Even the kids were better behaved (probably because I was calmer).


#6: Educational content

I’ve started sharing some educational/informative content on Instagram after reviewing my therapy notes on social anxiety.

I feel nervous about sharing educational content (e.g. Common physical symptoms of social anxiety), because I’m not a doctor, and I don’t want to… overstep?

But it should be fine to just share what I’ve learned, right? Even if I’m not an authority on the subject.

I want my blog and Instagram to be a mix of useful information and relatable experiences.


#7: Avoiding video therapy

My psychiatrist has called to check in every week since lockdown began, and to see if I’m interested in trying a virtual therapy session with her.

She makes it clear there’s no pressure.

She leaves a voicemail (I never answer the phone…), and I return her call most weeks (during hours I’m sure she won’t be in the office).

I’ve passed on the offer every week so far.

And the thing is, I should take her up on it. My social anxiety symptoms are becoming more intense as isolation continues.

But that’s exactly the problem. I can’t bring myself to overcome the anxiety enough to get on the phone or video with her.

I can’t even bring myself to try to coordinate her schedule with our schedules (Jesse would have to take an hour off work to look after the kids).

I want to say I’ll try a virtual session next week. But I can’t make that promise in good faith.


#8: Mother’s day

Sunday is Mother’s Day, and I’ve been informed (by Jesse AND James) that I will get to sleep in and drink coffee in bed while I read.

So apparently you CAN win the lottery without buying a ticket.


#9: If I Had a million dollars…

…I would do a bunch of noble shit and then buy all the cute TeeTurtle shirts I’ve been eyeing for months.


#10: Upcoming blog post…?

I am having major writer’s block for my next Monday post.

I had thought it might be time to write about how social anxiety can impact a person’s sexuality and sex life, because the effects can be extremely challenging and I don’t see anyone else talking about it.

But when I tried to write that post, it became very hard to be candid in my usual way without being way too… detailed.

So I got way into my own head about how to approach the topic, and gave myself page fright.

My other draft is about how anxiety can turn into anger, from the mom perspective.

But I am still undecided.

It’s just been that kind of week.


Questions for Bloggers:

Do you ever go back through old blog posts to update them?

How do you handle old content on your blog?


That’s been my week!

How was yours?

What did you get up to?

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This week is ๐Œ๐š๐ญ๐ž๐ซ๐ง๐š๐ฅ ๐Œ๐ž๐ง๐ญ๐š๐ฅ ๐‡๐ž๐š๐ฅ๐ญ๐ก ๐—ช๐ž๐ž๐ค, and today is ๐—ช๐จ๐ซ๐ฅ๐ ๐Œ๐š๐ญ๐ž๐ซ๐ง๐š๐ฅ ๐Œ๐ž๐ง๐ญ๐š๐ฅ ๐‡๐ž๐š๐ฅ๐ญ๐ก ๐ƒ๐š๐ฒ.โฃโฃ โฃโฃ Iโ€™m participating in the #๐๐ž๐š๐ซ๐Ÿ๐ž๐ฅ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฐ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฆ campaign organized by @lettersoflightproject and @perinatalmhpartnership to raise awareness of maternal mental health issues.โฃโฃ โฃโฃ ๐˜”๐˜บ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ด๐˜ข๐˜จ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜ด ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ด:โฃโฃ โฃโฃ ๐˜๐Ž๐” ๐€๐‘๐„ ๐„๐๐Ž๐”๐†๐‡. โฃโฃ โฃโฃ I've struggled with "๐˜ˆ๐˜ฎ ๐˜ ๐˜จ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜จ๐˜ฉ ๐˜บ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต?" since I became a mom (before that, really). โฃโฃ โฃโฃ But especially as a mom. โฃโฃ โฃโฃ Becoming a mom brought my anxiety and depression bubbling to the surface. โฃโฃ โฃโฃ It has been hard but also amazing because it's pushed me to work on my mental health and get to a stronger, healthier place. โฃโฃ โฃโฃ ๐ˆ๐Ÿ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฐ๐š๐ง๐ญ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฃ๐จ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐ ๐ซ๐ž๐š๐ญ ๐œ๐š๐ฆ๐ฉ๐š๐ข๐ ๐ง:โฃโฃ โฃโฃ Grab a pen and paper, write some encouraging words for other mamas, and post a photo with the hashtag #dearfellowmum. โฃโฃ โฃโฃ Be sure to tag @lettersoflightproject and @perinatalmhpartnership! :)โฃโฃ โฃโฃ ๐—ช๐ž ๐ ๐จ๐ญ ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ, ๐ฆ๐š๐ฆ๐š๐ฌ ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ฆ๐š๐ฆ๐š๐ฌ-๐ญ๐จ-๐›๐ž! โฃโฃ โฃโฃ ๐˜š๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜บ ๐˜ฃ๐˜บ @lapapierre

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Weekly Update 10: Ten Things That Sum Up My Week

I joined Bloglovin’! Apparently I have to post this link at the top of a new post to be able to “claim my blog”: Follow my blog with Bloglovin. Fingers crossed I did that properly.


Hereโ€™s this weekโ€™s installment in my Weekly Update series!

The reality of trying to take a great selfie with two little ones.

Success! I resorted to making a toot joke right before taking the shot. And I am not sorry.

#1: This week’s post

One post went out this week: How I Deal with Self-Doubt as a Shy Blogger (6 Tips).


#2: Reality vs. social anxiety brain

Jesse and I have been chatting about writing a humourous post together on “What he says to me VS What my socially anxious brain hears.” Things like:

He says:

“Oh, all the spoons are dirty.”

I hear:

“WE NEED TO TALK. You’re really being slobby and it’s inconsiderate of you to dirty spoons and leave them in the sink for a few hours.”

What he actually meant:

“Oh, all the spoons are dirty. I’ll just wash one.”

The truth, of course, is that what I hear comes from MY brain and my inner bully.

We’re still chatting about how to make it funny in the right way.


#3: Video chat

Video chatted with a friend this week! Felt nervous and awkward. Was assured it went just fine. Friend remains friend and wishes to video chat again.

Terrified/relieved.

Thank you, friend.


#4: New-New blog look

Designed using Canva!

In other news… ugh, I know I JUST announced a revamped blog look and tagline last week… but I revamped it again.

I went fully hands-on and creative, focusing on what felt most “me when I’m being my real self.”

So that’s why you’ll see a fun new header, logo, and updates throughout.

I even chose little characters for each of my family members (Jesse, James, Olivia, and of course me!). I’m using them on Instagram and also included a photo on my right sidebar here under “Cast of Characters.”

Anyway I love the new look, and I’m still learning how the new theme works. Yay!


#5: Go give Ali some love!

Clickable image!

Another blogger who is in the process of updating her blog is Ali from The Crazy Life.

I don’t think the changes will be live by the time I post this, but she has vulnerable, sweet, and real posts on her blog and I’m sure she would love your support if you don’t follow her already!

She writes about “Momming, anxiety, and life.” So, clearly super relatable for me.

Ali is also on Instagram as @the.crazylife10.


#6: Playlist!

I made a cute-fun playlist on Spotify called “Kid songs that boost my mood.” It’s here if you want to have a listen!

I also could have named it “songs I hear over and over in kids’ movies that we watch 20 times a day (slight exaggeration) but that somehow still manage to validate my existence and make me feel like a better adult.”

But that was a LITTLE too… much.


#7: Check out this memoir!

I’m reading the brand new memoir of a friend I’ve made on Instagram:

Clicking on the cover image will take you to links to buy the Kindle or paperback version of the book!

She wants to “give mental illness a voice.”

Her Instagram handle is @solveitbywalking and she is so insightful and supportive on the platform.

I plan to do an actual post on the book when I’m done, but I’m a very slow reader, so I wanted to share one of my favourite passages so far.

The context is that Lia is discussing the “grand divide” between those who are experiencing mental illness and those who have recovered from it and “no longer have the same level of insight into [their] former condition.”

Perhaps being on the edge, looking over it, and seeing both sides at the same time has put me in a unique position to build a bridge.

Lia Colibri, Solve It By Walking

I just love how Lia articulates this divide.

I wholeheartedly recommend supporting this lovely new mental health memoir writer!!!


#8: V Wars

Image from Wikipedia

I finished V Wars. It is unclear whether there will be a season 2.

I mourn.

But only mild-to-moderate mourning.

Not, like, the level of mourning called for if they cancelled You or The Walking Dead, or when I finished the last episode of the original Veronica Mars.

Obviously.


#9: I don’t even know what to call what happens in this section

I made a kittycorn for Olivia, and it looks HILARIOUS and derpy* but also somehow adorable.**

1. “Make me a cat head, Mommy.”
Here you go!
2. “It needs to be a unicorn.”
Here you go!
3. “It needs a body.”
Here. This is the best I can do, girl.

*I am having socially anxious feelings about using the word derpy. Usually I try to be as inoffensive as possible in EVERYTHING I do, because backlash would liquefy my soul (what, souls can totally liquefy).

And I know that there was a character in My Little Pony that was introduced as Derpy Hooves, but there was backlash, so they changed her name to Muffins (I think? the story there is a bit muddled), and since then I have not been able to say derpy in public or online.

And, yes, I could just delete the word here and go with, “The kittycorn looks HILARIOUS and muffins but also somehow adorable,” but that would require an entirely DIFFERENT lengthy explanation and wouldn’t give me the chance to give you THIS explanation while also facing my (derpy) fear.

(I didn’t use the word derpy much before, to be fair. But now it’s one of those words I CAN’T say, ร  la Austin Powers being awkward when talking to a mole with a mole.)

**Incidentally, “HILARIOUS and derpy but also somehow adorable” is how I hope to be described after I die.

“Muffins.”
Yes, I really want this shirt.

#10: Bluuuuue Haiiiiiiir

Clickable image (not an affiliate link — haven’t tried that sort of thing out yet)
  • I ordered a shampoo/conditioner that is supposed to tint my hair blue. I’ve only dyed my hair once before, and that was when my hairdresser added purple streaks.
    • Normally I’d be too self-conscious to dye my hair completely, and I also have a mental block after DECADES of being told not to dye my hair because “people PAY to have ginger hair, you know.” (Said by all humans ever.)
      • So there’s this GUILT whenever I want to dye my hair, where I feel like I’m betraying everyone, especially my redhead-folk, and rejecting my true self simultaneously.
        • Now that I’ve articulated this, I realize it might be SLIGHTLY neurotic.
          • All the more reason to change those beliefs.
            • Plus I’m feeling adventurous and not seeing many people right now, so it’s a nice time to experiment and challenge my anxiety.

I will share photos when it’s done!

(That is why there is a photo of a blue-haired Barbie in the featured image.

Even though I think Barbies are not great for girls’ body image, this particular picture was too funny to pass up.

When else would I get to use a picture of a blue-haired, nude Barbie lying in a shopping cart brandishing a huge fork?)

I mean she’s BRANDISHING A BIG-ASS FORK while sitting naked in a shopping cart. The story you’d have to concoct to make this situation make sense would be AMAZING to hear.

Monday’s upcoming post is called

I Took 4 Online Tests for Social Anxiety: Here Are My Results”


That’s been my week!

How was yours?

What did you get up to?

Featured image is from Canva Pro.

Weekly Update 9: F*** You, Chin Whisker

Hereโ€™s this weekโ€™s installment in my Weekly Update series!


#1

I would like to formally declare my hatred for that ONE CHIN HAIR that just won’t quit.

It’s like a dandelion. Resilient. Persistent. You know it’ll always come back.

A chin dandelion.

But less yellow and pretty.

A chin weed.

DARK. COARSE. PETULANT.


#2

Anyway!


#3

Thank you (very belatedly) so much to Christina for nominating this blog for the Mystery Blogger Award and to Caz for nominating the blog for the Vincent Ehindero Blogger Award! Receiving community support like this is so flattering and encouraging. I will do the award posts over the next couple of weeks!


#4

One post went out this week: 6 Things Parents Probably Won’t Be Worrrying About 20 Years After Quarantine.


#5

My upcoming Monday post is called, “How I Deal With Self-Doubt as a Shy Blogger (6 Tips).” Not mom-related; more focused on mental health and behind-the-scenes of being a blogger with a social anxiety background.


#6

I’m finally having fun on Instagram, now that I’ve decided to focus on posting thoughts and excerpts rather than photo upon photo of my own face. I’ve been sharing silly kid quotes, too!


#7

We made nutshell mice this week, and the kids have been playing with their new little friends.

I feel like this is a point in the “fun mom” column (although I was kind of bossy and cranky during the craft itself…).


#8

James has a bunch of homework for his (kindergarten) class, some involving supplies we don’t have, and I’m just feeling worn out and frustrated by it all. I don’t really feel like he’s getting much out of it.

I let him skip one morning this week, because I just… didn’t have it in me.

Trying to take my own advice and keep it in perspective.

It’s just hard when I worry that the teachers are silently judging me every time we don’t submit a fully fleshed-out drawing or a dissertation on the shapes found in his recycled train creation.


#9

I’ve been staying up way too late watching V Wars.


#10

Jesse did SCIEEENCE with the kids:

Decided to do some science today.

James got a microscope for Christmas (thanks Julie!) and this seemed like a good opportunity to learn about things that are too small for our eyes to see.

So after looking at some stuff around the house, we decided to mount an expedition to find muddy water. Kids each collected a sample (and were very proud of themselves).

Then we looked at it under the microscope to see what little creatures might be in there.

Saw some plant cells, some sand, and some little protozoans (they look like see-through grains of rice) that were swimming around.

Fabulous Blushy Husband, aka Not-That-Kind-of-Doctor Hall

That’s been my week! How was yours? What did you get up to?

Weekly Update 8: I’m So Excited, and I Just Can’t Hide It… (BLOG NEWS!)

Here’s this week’s installment in my Weekly Update series!


  1. This update is overdue and no longer qualifies as “weekly,” but I’m going to be more consistent now.
  2. I’m able to write this today because my amazing husband announced last night, “Why don’t you take the whole day for yourself tomorrow? You’ve been in kid mode 24/7 since this thing (isolation) started.
  3. This feels like a spa day. I slept in. I drank hot coffee. I came down to my computer desk (which I haven’t sat at in 5 weeks), and I’ve been writing, and planning blog and Instagram content, and making graphics, and eating chocolate. After I hit publish, I’m going to do a face mask and take a bath. GASP.
  4. I could cry. Happy cry.
  5. This also gives me a chance to tell you about the changes I have made and will be making to the blog!!! You may have noticed the new blog header, and the new tagline: Mental Health & Motherhood.
  6. I’ve decided to, not really shift focus, but give myself the freedom to expand beyond social anxiety into mental health in general and as it connects with motherhood (still with a focus on social anxiety and perfectionism, since that is what impacts my life most in terms of mental health). So I’m envisioning this as a “mental health mom blog” of sorts.
  7. I’m really feeling good about this. My goal is to do a “topic post” weekly, probably on Mondays, and then also do a casual (read: non-obsessively edited and designed) weekly update post on the weekend.
  8. Throughout the week, I’ll be sharing excerpts and quotes from my posts on Instagram. I posted a little slideshow on Instagram this morning to introduce/reintroduce myself. (Instagram is something I’ve enjoyed using but been very unsure about what to post. I don’t really like posting photos of myself looking “candid” every day… I don’t see myself as an influencer. I see myself as a blogger/writer. So that’s the content I’m going to focus on sharing on Instagram.)
  9. I’ve decided to be more methodical/strategic about my blog/Instagram because: a) I think it will let me be more consistent, and, crucially, b) it will give me time to engage more with other bloggers’ and Instagrammers’ content because I won’t be spending all my time wondering “What to post?! When to post?! Where to post?! What photos to use???” Engagement with the communities is something I really value.
  10. My next blog post will be out on Monday morning! It’s called 6 Things Parents Probably Won’t Be Worrying About 20 Years After Quarantine. I can’t wait for you to read it! ๐Ÿ™‚

Thanks for being here!!!

If you had to pick 3 words to describe how your weekend is going, what would they be?


P.S. This is the slideshow I posted on Instagram. The content comes from my newly revised About page:

Weekly Update 7: 12 Things I’m Grateful for This Week

The world in its current state has been making me very grateful for the things in my life, from the simple-fun to the priceless-meaningful. Here are a few of them. ๐Ÿ™‚

1. This painting

My son made me this a few months ago. I framed it and now it sits on the little bookshelf at the end of our bed. He loves that I framed it.

Also in the photo: their handprints on wood, and two trees from Lebanon (gifts from the Lebanese interpreters who assisted Jesse’s group during their deployment).

2. These goodie boxes

My friend has a subscription to Birchbox, and she always saves the cosmetics she doesn’t feel like using for me. Plus the boxes themselves are adorable. Getting to try fun high-end beauty products in sample sizes makes me giddy.

Olivia loves to try out the lip glosses. She calls them “lip stip.” Her favourites are the sparkly ones.

3. This secret rock art garden

We found it near our house in a nature-y path area (which we call The Secret Path even though it’s not hidden).

Every rock we turned over was painted underneath! The kids painted their own rocks to add to the garden.

4. Chocolate

As I write this, the kids are watching Paw Patrol, and I am hiding in my bedroom eating chocolate in blissful solitude. With a side of coffee in a mug my Grandpa gave me.

…it was a Snickers bar. Don’t judge me, Jesse. I can feel you judging me. If you find crumbs in the bed… it was the kids.

5. Our shower

…when I get to use it.

6. Our dishwasher

For years–my whole life really–I thought I was above the need for such a luxury.

Then we got one.

And I am not above it.

Not above it at all.

7. This book

It was tons of fun to read and kept me up past my bedtime.

I have a lot of “book paralysis” so it’s really nice when I can work up to getting lost in a book.

Set in the Warhammer 40k universe.

(I love books and reading… it’s just… I get weirdly perfectionistic/anxious about actually picking a book and then reading it. It would probably take a whole post to explain it.)

8. The soundtrack from the show Trolls: The Beat Goes On

It is ridiculously happy and dance-inducing. My favourite songs are Hair in the Air and The Other Side of the Storm.

9. My son

…who is cuter than he has any right to be.

He’s just getting into Pokemon. ๐Ÿ˜Š

10. My daughter

…who is cuter than she has any right to be.

11. My husband

…who is cuter than he has any right to be.

December 2019. There’s a time when I would not have been able to share this (“my tummy!” “my arms” “whyyyyyyyy”). But those times have been in the rearview mirror for a while. I still have my moments, but I get through them.

12. You guys

…who are obviously also way cuter than you have any right to be. ๐Ÿ˜‡

What are you grateful for this week?