Cozy, warm. Duvet and pillow. Big spoon, little spoon. Drifting… a car crash a plane crash a train crash a house fire a cliff Niagara Falls choking leukemia– STOP. Stop. Stop. Breathe in. Out. Hold hands. Drif– drowning freezing did … Continue reading What if
I’m tired of wondering what you’ll think I’m tired of trying to find the best light for the best angle of my best self I’m tired of needing so much time alone to recharge but then never wanting … Continue reading Tired
Please raincheck. Please say you have to postpone. Please ask to reschedule. Please let me stay here alone. But I’m lonely. Let’s make plans I don’t have to keep. Let’s talk of all the fun we’ll never have. … Continue reading Another Time
The fact that I “have” anxiety does not make me a failure at being a human. And I don’t “have” anxiety because of some personal failing. Anxiety is just a part of me–a part of everyone, really. The goal has never been to eliminate it completely, but to learn to manage and tolerate it. Continue reading CBT DIARIES | Sessions 8-12: Life After CBT
You are fire.
You are grit.
The world is better
because you’re in it.
Continue reading Fire & Grit
I kept thinking, I *actually* have social anxiety. It isn’t just a fluke that I’m here, or some intellectual exercise, as I’ve been approaching it. I thought I was further along than this… Continue reading CBT DIARIES | Sessions 5-7: It’s Actually Hard Now…
Basically, if you’re willing to have a standoff with your anxiety, it will eventually fall asleep, unlike the preschooler who tried to engage me in conversation all last night. He won that battle. But I can win the war on anxiety. Continue reading CBT DIARIES | Session 4: Exposure Therapy Begins (aka DO NOT WANT)
If you’ve been following my CBT Diaries series, then you may remember that there’s a cognitive distortion called “catastrophizing.” In a nutshell, it means predicting that some “worst case scenario” cascade of events will occur in a given situation.
Most of the time, the worst case scenario doesn’t happen.
The magic started to happen this week, because after learning about cognitive distortions, the real goal is to challenge those distortions with a more realistic thought process.
Countering a distortion involves asking healthier, more realistic questions to help pull you away from the brain bully’s toxic thought-vortex. Continue reading CBT Diaries | Session 3: F*ck you, brain bully!
Everyone has moments of wonky thinking. What is life if not a collection of subjective experiences? But people with social anxiety disorder (SAD) can be practically drowning in distortions (me) and this affects their well-being and mental health. And in the case of SAD, these distortions usually focus on our performance or what people think of us. Continue reading CBT Diaries | Session 2: Cognitive distortions