About

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Me and my babies, who are clearly no longer babies but remain so in my heart

The current focus of this blog is on sharing my experience in group therapy (cognitive-behavioural therapy) for social anxiety. I also post on other topics related to this journey.

My story:

In June 2018, I was diagnosed with very severe social anxiety, persistent mild depressive disorder with low self-esteem, provisional major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, perfectionism, and body-focused repetitive behaviours. (It’s a big list, but they are all interconnected.) This led to individual counselling with a psychiatrist and then the group therapy I’m taking now.

My very first post I wrote was my Open Letter To My Younger Self, which was scary and exhilarating to write and share.

When my group therapy started, I began writing a series called CBT Diaries. Here’s the first post: CBT DIARIES | Session 1: You’re not alone.

In October 2018, I went to an eating disorders clinic because another big struggle I face is with severe distress and low self-esteem related to eating and body image. This is still fresh and I haven’t figured out how or when to address it. I wrote about it here and here.

I chose to write about my journey because I love to write and because this gives me a chance to share my story from a safe social distance. Strangely, it’s easier to be real online to an unseen audience than it is to be intimate and vulnerable in person. For now.

If you’re reading this, I hope it helps you feel less alone. You’re not crazy or unworthy or beyond help. We’re all searching for our own version of healthy and happy, but we don’t have to travel that path alone.

Don’t let the perfect be the enemy of the good. For we are all but good.

Virtual hugs from me to you (I never initiate in-person hugs, because HELLO SOCIAL ANXIETY, but online I’m a hugger).

Sadie xoxo