Here’s this week’s installment in my Weekly Update series!
#1: This week’s posts
Two posts went out this week:
I recorded myself reading the post above (Shorts, My Old Nemesis…) out loud (!!!!!!!!). It’s at the end of that post.
I found it a lot of fun. I like finding new ways to challenge my social anxiety that don’t actually involve interacting directly with other humans…
#3: I have a stye
I don't know why,
But I have a stye.
I guess I'll cry.
(It’s actually not bad. Just annoying. Jesse’s mama is a nurse and she said warm compresses and NO POPPING OR POKING OR GENERALLY PROVOKING IT.)
#4: Body image and social anxiety
I shared this image on Instagram and wanted to include it here, too.
It was surprising and helpful when I first learned that it is common for those who experience social anxiety to also struggle with body image dissatisfaction.
I can see why: social anxiety is a fear of judgment by others. It’s not a big leap to fearing the judgment of one’s body by others.
#5: Look, I can open a cupboard!
I shared this image in the same post as above, as a challenge to myself. I have a really hard time seeing myself from the side in photos. So I took a fairly “safe” side photo and posted it. Baby steps.
The more times I’ve seen it this week, the less weird I have looked to myself. (Does that sentence make sense?)
#6: The Tees Were Teasing Me
I could resist no longer. I have ordered two TeeTurtle shirts:
I think I’m kind of obsessed with graphic tees.
I think I’ve always loved them, but I’ve been closet-obsessed. As in, in the closet about my obsession, not obsessed about the closet I will keep my glorious new tees in.
I’ve had weird hang-ups about wearing graphic tees. Broadcasting my tastes visually has made me feel exposed and vulnerable.
But no more!
I am going to unleash my long-dormant, simmering-beneath-the-surface graphic tee addiction.
(In a financially responsible way.) (Mostly.)
I will still feel vulnerable and exposed, but that will be social anxiety talking, and I will try hard to hear that voice but not obey it.
#7: The LEGO Movie 2
I can’t stop listening to the soundtrack for The LEGO Movie 2. It’s here on Spotify.
I don’t know if it will be at all interesting to listen to if you haven’t seen the movie and don’t know the characters, but my favourite song is Not Evil by Tiffany Hadish.
#8: Best line I’ve heard In a long time
By a self-accepting, introverted friend who is constantly showing me new ways to think about things related to introversion, shyness, people pleasing, and more (and who preferred to remain nameless but gave me permission to share):
#9: “How do you introduce yourself at parties?”
I heard this icebreaker question the other day (not at an actual party).
And I don’t generally like this kind of structured small talk, but I feel less awkward about it in writing, when I’ve had time to think.
I guess I would say, “I’m a mom of 2, and like to write about mental health when I’m not keeping the kids alive or freelancing.”
Maybe? I probably wouldn’t say that. Maybe something more like:
“Teehee! That’s SO KIND of you to ask! I freelance! I have kids! I get CHIPPER AS F*** when introduced to new people and put on the spot! WHAT ABOUT YOU?!?!?!”
#10: I finally did it
I finally wrote that post about how social anxiety disorder can impact a person’s sex life.
It’s something I’ve wanted to do for a long time, because it’s a legitimate issue that I don’t see discussed in a candid and personal way.
The post is lighthearted and hopefully a little funny. Nothing too graphic. I’m just testing the waters to see what kind of response there is.
I’m prepared for very little response — it’s hard enough to talk about social anxiety openly, let alone social anxiety in the bedroom.
Anyway, the post is called “How To Have Socially Anxious Sex In 4 Easy Steps” and it goes out on Monday morning.
I’m considering doing a read-aloud for that one, too. Thoughts?