Weekly Update 11: Ten Things That Sum Up My Week


Hereโ€™s this weekโ€™s installment in my Weekly Update series!


#1: This week’s post

One post went out this week: I Took 4 Online Tests for Social Anxiety: Here Are My Results


#2: Jesse’s birthday

It was Jesse’s birthday yesterday (May 8)! We had a subdued celebration with chocolate cake, pizza, and The LEGO Movie 2.

When the world turns back on, we’ll go out and celebrate more excitingly.

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๐€ ๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ฉ๐ฉ๐จ๐ซ๐ญ๐ข๐ฏ๐ž ๐ฉ๐š๐ซ๐ญ๐ง๐ž๐ซ ๐œ๐š๐ง ๐›๐ž ๐š ๐ฅ๐ข๐Ÿ๐ž๐ฌ๐š๐ฏ๐ž๐ซ. โฃโฃ โฃโฃ A supportive partner can be a ๐ฉ๐จ๐ญ๐ž๐ง๐ญ ๐š๐ง๐ญ๐ข๐๐จ๐ญ๐ž to the ๐ญ๐จ๐ฑ๐ข๐œ ๐ญ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ ๐ก๐ญ๐ฌ that run through the mind of someone who struggles with perfectionism, anxiety, and low self-esteem.โฃโฃ โฃโฃ ๐˜๐˜ข๐˜ฑ๐˜ฑ๐˜บ ๐˜ฃ๐˜ช๐˜ณ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฅ๐˜ข๐˜บ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜น๐˜ช๐˜ฆ๐˜ต๐˜บ ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฅ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต๐˜ฆ, ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ด๐˜ข๐˜ง๐˜ฆ ๐˜ฑ๐˜ญ๐˜ข๐˜ค๐˜ฆ, ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ ๐˜ณ๐˜ฐ๐˜ค๐˜ฌ, ๐˜ข๐˜ฏ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฌ๐˜ช๐˜ฅ๐˜ด' ๐˜ซ๐˜ถ๐˜ฏ๐˜จ๐˜ญ๐˜ฆ ๐˜จ๐˜บ๐˜ฎ.โฃโฃ โฃ

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#3: Cuticle Picking

I’ve fallen back to my old habit of tearing my cuticles apart. I’d been doing really well for months. My index finger is currently wearing a Frozen 2 bandaid.

That’s how I know I’m probably more stressed in my body than I realize in my mind. About…? Maybe it’s just week 8 of lockdown life.


#4: Hard week

Actually, it has been a very hard week emotionally.

In my daily mood tracker, I had to introduce a new colour/category for Thursday (May 7). Previously, my lowest mood was red and called “really struggling.”

On Thursday, I introduced black and called it “The Worst.”

This was the peak of the mess that was Thursday:

Thursday.

#5: Hubby pep talk

The way I act and talk with my kids when I’m anxious is just… so not at all how I see or saw myself as a mom, you know?

Jesse lifted my spirits later on Thursday night with one of his pep talks.

“You’re caring for tiny humans who adore and love you, but don’t have the ability to care or empathize for your needs yet. Anyone would get drained and struggle under those conditions.”

The part of his pep talk that stuck with me most.

The next day was the best day mood-wise I’d had all week. Even the kids were better behaved (probably because I was calmer).


#6: Educational content

I’ve started sharing some educational/informative content on Instagram after reviewing my therapy notes on social anxiety.

I feel nervous about sharing educational content (e.g. Common physical symptoms of social anxiety), because I’m not a doctor, and I don’t want to… overstep?

But it should be fine to just share what I’ve learned, right? Even if I’m not an authority on the subject.

I want my blog and Instagram to be a mix of useful information and relatable experiences.


#7: Avoiding video therapy

My psychiatrist has called to check in every week since lockdown began, and to see if I’m interested in trying a virtual therapy session with her.

She makes it clear there’s no pressure.

She leaves a voicemail (I never answer the phone…), and I return her call most weeks (during hours I’m sure she won’t be in the office).

I’ve passed on the offer every week so far.

And the thing is, I should take her up on it. My social anxiety symptoms are becoming more intense as isolation continues.

But that’s exactly the problem. I can’t bring myself to overcome the anxiety enough to get on the phone or video with her.

I can’t even bring myself to try to coordinate her schedule with our schedules (Jesse would have to take an hour off work to look after the kids).

I want to say I’ll try a virtual session next week. But I can’t make that promise in good faith.


#8: Mother’s day

Sunday is Mother’s Day, and I’ve been informed (by Jesse AND James) that I will get to sleep in and drink coffee in bed while I read.

So apparently you CAN win the lottery without buying a ticket.


#9: If I Had a million dollars…

…I would do a bunch of noble shit and then buy all the cute TeeTurtle shirts I’ve been eyeing for months.


#10: Upcoming blog post…?

I am having major writer’s block for my next Monday post.

I had thought it might be time to write about how social anxiety can impact a person’s sexuality and sex life, because the effects can be extremely challenging and I don’t see anyone else talking about it.

But when I tried to write that post, it became very hard to be candid in my usual way without being way too… detailed.

So I got way into my own head about how to approach the topic, and gave myself page fright.

My other draft is about how anxiety can turn into anger, from the mom perspective.

But I am still undecided.

It’s just been that kind of week.


Questions for Bloggers:

Do you ever go back through old blog posts to update them?

How do you handle old content on your blog?


That’s been my week!

How was yours?

What did you get up to?

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This week is ๐Œ๐š๐ญ๐ž๐ซ๐ง๐š๐ฅ ๐Œ๐ž๐ง๐ญ๐š๐ฅ ๐‡๐ž๐š๐ฅ๐ญ๐ก ๐—ช๐ž๐ž๐ค, and today is ๐—ช๐จ๐ซ๐ฅ๐ ๐Œ๐š๐ญ๐ž๐ซ๐ง๐š๐ฅ ๐Œ๐ž๐ง๐ญ๐š๐ฅ ๐‡๐ž๐š๐ฅ๐ญ๐ก ๐ƒ๐š๐ฒ.โฃโฃ โฃโฃ Iโ€™m participating in the #๐๐ž๐š๐ซ๐Ÿ๐ž๐ฅ๐ฅ๐จ๐ฐ๐ฆ๐ฎ๐ฆ campaign organized by @lettersoflightproject and @perinatalmhpartnership to raise awareness of maternal mental health issues.โฃโฃ โฃโฃ ๐˜”๐˜บ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ฆ๐˜ด๐˜ด๐˜ข๐˜จ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ ๐˜ฐ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ ๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜ฎ๐˜ข๐˜ด ๐˜ช๐˜ด ๐˜ต๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ด:โฃโฃ โฃโฃ ๐˜๐Ž๐” ๐€๐‘๐„ ๐„๐๐Ž๐”๐†๐‡. โฃโฃ โฃโฃ I've struggled with "๐˜ˆ๐˜ฎ ๐˜ ๐˜จ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฐ๐˜ฅ ๐˜ฆ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜จ๐˜ฉ ๐˜บ๐˜ฆ๐˜ต?" since I became a mom (before that, really). โฃโฃ โฃโฃ But especially as a mom. โฃโฃ โฃโฃ Becoming a mom brought my anxiety and depression bubbling to the surface. โฃโฃ โฃโฃ It has been hard but also amazing because it's pushed me to work on my mental health and get to a stronger, healthier place. โฃโฃ โฃโฃ ๐ˆ๐Ÿ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฐ๐š๐ง๐ญ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฃ๐จ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ ๐ ๐ซ๐ž๐š๐ญ ๐œ๐š๐ฆ๐ฉ๐š๐ข๐ ๐ง:โฃโฃ โฃโฃ Grab a pen and paper, write some encouraging words for other mamas, and post a photo with the hashtag #dearfellowmum. โฃโฃ โฃโฃ Be sure to tag @lettersoflightproject and @perinatalmhpartnership! :)โฃโฃ โฃโฃ ๐—ช๐ž ๐ ๐จ๐ญ ๐ญ๐ก๐ข๐ฌ, ๐ฆ๐š๐ฆ๐š๐ฌ ๐š๐ง๐ ๐ฆ๐š๐ฆ๐š๐ฌ-๐ญ๐จ-๐›๐ž! โฃโฃ โฃโฃ ๐˜š๐˜ต๐˜ข๐˜ต๐˜ช๐˜ฐ๐˜ฏ๐˜ฆ๐˜ณ๐˜บ ๐˜ฃ๐˜บ @lapapierre

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10 thoughts on “Weekly Update 11: Ten Things That Sum Up My Week

  1. Jesse sounds like an awesome pep-talker.

    I’ve done some cleaning up of old posts before, but recently I’ve picked out a few posts from my early days that I’m going to rework and then republish.

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    1. He can be a scallywag but he’s a wonderful source of support ๐Ÿฅฐ๐Ÿฅฐ

      And thanks for the info! I’ve been pondering what if anything to do with my earliest posts, which has content that I want to keep but are different in tone and style. A little anyway.

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  2. We feel compassion that you had to invent a color Thursday. Parenting while anxious is our life, too. Itโ€™s hard to keep it together for us. We can walk away now instead of yelling. Weโ€™d like to stay and be calm, not panic.

    We keep old posts as-is. We donโ€™t read them ever or refer/link to them unless it might help someone. We like the idea of our imperfect history, as opposed to creating a brand or flavor for us. That might not apply to other people. For us, itโ€™d be like revising our journal, which we do not do. OCD likes to make our โ€œeโ€ letters look less like โ€œcโ€ letters. Busy ๐Ÿ OCD

    โค๏ธ๐Ÿ’•โค๏ธ

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    1. I can definitely see how it would make the journey, hmmm, less authentic, maybe, to go back and revise old entries? I do a mix of journal-style and “standard/typical/generic” (not sure what word is best) posts. It’s the latter that I’m thinking about polishing up. Overthinking is a sport I excel in.

      I found your comment about c and e interesting. I don’t think I experience OCD to a diagnosable level, but I definitely struggle with handwriting, because it’s uneven/imperfect/smudgy/etc. I’ve found it harder and harder to journal on paper over the years.

      Thanks for reading and commenting and sending compassion xoxoxo

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  3. When this is all over you will be able go back over your posts and write The COVID-19 Memoirs. With hindsight and perspective I think you will be able to create a useful guide to surviving a pandemic quarantine. To help others for next time…..but let’s pray there isn’t a next time.

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  4. Sounds like you’ve been through a rather difficult week! I think it’s a great skill though to be able to reflect so eloquently on your feelings. About the next blog post, I think we all experience doubts about what to write at times, but I’ve always been told to write about what YOU want to write about most. What would you write about if it was purely for yourself? Whatever it is, your passion and care for the subject will surely come through if it’s important to you ๐Ÿ˜Š
    (I sure hope I don’t come across as sounding like a know-it-all. Admittedly, I have not had an awful lot of life experience but like to think I’m relatively wise from what I’ve been through haha)

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    1. You don’t at alllll sound know-it-all-y, but I completely get why you’d feel that way, because I’d have the same concerns hehe.

      Thank you so much. Your comments are always so thoughtful and encouraging ๐Ÿฅฐ

      And you’re right. I should write about what I want to write about instead of trying to guess what others might want to read. Xo

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